A day for reflection...

The wind is howling outside my room now.... the trees are swaying...

It's been like this since yesterday...I don't even haven to switch on the fan to sleep... it's so cold and windy...

Well.. that's December for you... cold and windy all month round...

Anyway... decided to do some blogging today.... since my lesson in the morning was cancelled.. it was postponed to Monday night...till 2200hrs... -_-".. i've got a class on Tuesday morning... so i think it would be better for me to camp in school....

As for the reflection... well... i had a PSOC test yesterday... sociology class test to be exact... and though it is not counted towards my final score... i just feel lousy that i am going to flunk it....
Hmmm.... honestly.. i didn't prepare enough for it... i was practically speed-reading through the notes... and so i can't really recall anything while taking the test...
I feel bad.. because the lecturer is going to mark my piece of rubbish.... and i think that is really bad....
Especially when i did reasonably well for the first one... so the drastic drop is bad...

The worst was... i see the questions... and i know the answers... but i can't recall... darn....
Well.... there's alot of reading and memorising in Sociology... and i guess in a way, i took it too easily...i breeze through the lecture notes... and i even went on to do additional readings on the course books... when all the requirement is in the lecture notes..
And as a result... i didn't have time to finish studying totally.... yup...

Well... it's actually not a very big deal... because it's just a class test... some didn't even bother to turn up for it.... but i just feel responsible man... letting the lecturer mark my rubbish...

Oh well.. some reflections here... makes me feel better... haha...

One thing though... i seriously don't like alot of the lecture notes... because they are basically print outs of powerpoint slides... i mean... lecture notes should be really notes... not powerpoint... personally view... i know it won't change anything....
It was one thing that i found out when i was reading the course books... the notes are rather "cha-pa-lang"... not in a very good order for understanding... when i read the books, the picture seem much clearer....

Oh well... it's over... i shan't not dwell over it...

The Standard Chartered Marathon is this Sunday.... any reflection here.... or more of a confession.... haha... i haven't run this whole week.... and the furthest i've done for my whole training is 10km... i had wanted to do some warm-up read on Wednesday, when i have no school, or this morning....
But well... plain lazy.... haha... i've totally no motivation to run.... in fact... i've never liked running.... but i join this marathon because i want to get the shirt... haha...
But well.... if this can lessen my guilt... the weather played a part too... i'm not sure about other areas... but this few days... in the east side... it always seem to be like it's going to rain, but it didn't rain... then there's dark clouds... and lighting... and at times it would rain rather heavily...
And so.... yep.... further excuses for not running....

Even as i am blogging now... the wind outside is howling.. and the sky is dark... i'm not sure if i want to go for a run then....

But nevertheless... i am still confident of myself... i can complete the race... no matter how slow i am... haha...
I remember the first time i climbed Mount Kinabalu... it was when i just my O levels... and i have totally no training before hand... just whack... haha....
Even for the 2nd time... i've actually been slacking in the army for quite long... but i think the base that i've built up during trainings helped me alot.... it was much easier the 2nd time round...

It's all in the mind.... ^_^

Anyway, the recommendation was that today is suppose to be a rest day.... (more excuses...)

Oh well... that's all...

Sunday.... a test of the mind...