Busy... busy...

It has been a very busy week... packed with school... work... make up lessons... life-saving courses... and more work...

Especially so for Thursday and Friday... i was packed for the whole day with lessons and work... sometimes rushing in between....

On Thursday.. i drove to school early in the morning... only to have my class cancelled because the lecturer forgot about it... -_-"
So the lesson was changed to Friday morning... and i went to the library to chill (literally... because the air-con is very very cold...) till the afternoon...
Then i drove to work... somewhere in Marsiling...
And after that rushed back for my evening class.... i was around 20minutes late... because of my mis-interpretation of the road.... haha...
Kinda embarrassing to go in.. but no choice... and the creaky door didn't help... it was so loud everyone turned to look at me.... diao....

Friday... also about the same... morning class... afternoon go work... then evening go life-saving course.... full day booked.... but this time i chose not to drive... save some money... took bus...

And well... Yesterday morning also went to work... then in the evening went for Gary's 21 birthday celebration....
In between... i was so tired... i just slept on the sofa all the way...

At the chalet... it suddenly dawned upon me that i am at the next phase of my life already.... and slowly... there will be friends that you will eventually loose contact with.. or just seldom contact anymore...
Especially so since i am in a different institute from most of my friends... it would mean that i won't be keeping in touch as often with alot of them...
It was rather apparent yesterday night that i was among the rather "odd" one there... i don't fit into any topics related to NTU or NUS... totally nothing to say man....
But well... i am also not a talkative person... so i don't mind listening in...

Well... not that i am still sore over not getting in... but it's just felt kinda "out"... and that feeling sucks....
Heard from another fellow SIM friend, Yi Ming.. that you can actually re-apply for a place at the local Universities if your grades are good enough to cross over.. but you have to start at the 1st year again...
Come to think of it... what's the point?
If i want to get an Honours degree... i would effectively be spending 5 years on my tertiary education... which by then... most of my peers are already in the work force... and i would then again... be lagging behind...
So i guess i am sticking onto my 3 years Honour degree path...

I guess... i'll just have to face the real world...
Personally... i do feel like i'm labelled as "not bright" for being in SIM... in fact... since my VS days i guess i am not very bright to alot of people...
It may be true... but sometimes it just feels sad that others have that image of me stuck in their mind as being that... "not bright"... poor grades and all...
And it is rather obvious from the way they react to you when asking questions... Haiz....

Maybe i am being over-sensitive... but well... the feeling is there man....

Luckily... i have a very thick skin... ^_^... so i actually take this view of others as a challenge to myself... i would prove myself over this course.... this sorts of motivate me to aim on for my FCH.... nothing short...
If i have to compete with the rest... it has to be a FCH....
It sucks to have this "not bright" labelled on me... for so long... and i want to change it...
And i believe i can...

SIM... afterall... is very good place to concentrate on studies... there is not much school life... so you will literally go there and study only....
But that is really boring... so i've actually joined the SIM ODAC... and joined their night cycling activity this coming Friday....
It would be good to get to know more friends on a personal basis... since we don't actually interact much in lectures... and that would also make school life more interesting...
But it would be abit troublesome... because we have to meet in SIM for the cycling... and i am using my own bicycle... so i have to transport it to Luis's house one of these days...

Anyway.... that's about what had happened this week... lots of activity and thoughts... haha...