Headach...

Really head big big liao... finding the location for my birthday party.....

Selected a few places... but so far none can confirm with me over it... damm... say will call me back... but so far didn't received any calls.....

But well... should be ok ba.... hopefully...

21st birthday is really a very troublesome thing man.... but on the account it's once in a life time... oh well....

Another interesting basketball session...

In case anyone have been wondering about my absence from blogging... well.. it's because i've sort of come to realise.. there isn't really any point in blogging everyday.... especially when i'm busy or something... like the past few days.... so yar... just do it once in a while...

Well... so some summary update of the past week....

Played soccer on CNY eve against Jun Kok's friend's team.. won them 7-3.... i was the team goal keeper.... happy to say... i blocked quite abit of shots... haha...



Then there is the usual visiting and receiving red packets of CNY.... been busy for a few days... keep visiting alot of relatives... then also got out out with my parents until night... then didnt' really have much time to blog...

This morning.. played basketball... the usual 3... played awhile with the outsiders.... male... then later went to play with 3 female... wrong.. actually they come to play with us...haha...
They were the same 3 that played with us the other time.... nicknamed SHE...

Basically... today's match was rather relaxing... didn't exert much... the first match not much of a challenge.... then the 2nd match... totally put water...
Girls ma.... what to do... but still own them like crazy...

The only bad thing is that.... we lost to them when we starting counting points... me and JK against SHE.... KL sit out... it was around 11-3.... sian...
I was getting rather tired le... got a few open layup also miss... sucks man...

Haiz... next time... if there is one... confirm will restore our pride.... mark my words....

Anyway... basically.. that's all... then come back sleep all the way...

Now rather busy... trying to do some planning for my 21st birthday... under the big encouragement from my dad... he want me to do a good one... so well... now researching possible places and buffets....
Planning to do 2.... 17th for my relatives... then 18th for my friends... because too many people liao... combine then very luan...

For the 17th, it will be a buffet at my house... then 18th... still trying to find a suitable place to accommodate all.. without them feeling bored... so must have a pool table...
Only place that i know so far is Liquid Kitchen... but got classmate do there before le... so not very nice to do at the same place again...

Still searching on the web... anyone got any lobang, please do let me know...

Then now also have to do planning for my cousins... they want to go climb Mount Kinabalu in June... so have to play host...

Haiz... busy busy man....

Happy Pig Year!!!

Yea yeah... Happy Chinese New Year to on and all.... very tired and busy now... from all the visiting....

But still.... all the best for everyone....

Pig year go lucky~~~

2nd day of work...

Think this must have been the most extraordinary part time job i have ever done... have you ever work until the supervisor decides to let everyone have a lunch break from 1100 till 1300... then even play pools and billard with you?


Well... i just did... today.... cool job huh?
And the pay still remains.... in fact... we are paid for the time we spent playing....

Somemore today release earlier.... we knocked opff around 1720... so i get to reach home earlier...

Anyway, that was due to the fact that we had too many people around, with too little job to do... adding on the fact taht the job is rather easy...... and since the supervisor is actually friends of JK... and wanting to help us make the full day pay... he actually suggested the above activity...

Haha.... really cool job man....

Yar... that's about it.... haha....

Not so tired... but still... want to go sleep liao.... haha...

1st Day of work....

Going to keep this real short.... rather tired already.. plus it's kinda late.. tomorrow still have to wake up early...

Been a rather tiring day...even though it's the 1st day of work... but well.. it's labour work... so yar...
And carry the servers around isnn't that easy... and my flu didn't help things at all... think it's because of the chalet no sleep.....
The working condition is rather natural... in a big cargo carpark of a building... natural air...
Vehicle fumes.... occasional wind...

And though i knock off at around 1900... i reach home at around 2100.... thanks to the "uluness" and farness of the workplace... jurong east and further...

But at least the pay paid up for it...

Well... 3 more days only... i've been through worse shit... this is nothing man....

Go sleep liao....

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ZzzZzzz...

Just finished watching "Walk left, walk right".... quite a nice movie.... rather romantic... suitable for the upcoming celebration....

Well... finally back at home.... after a rather hectic schedule since yesterday....

Going to keep it short... because i'm finally going to work tomorrow... after JK jioed me on his job.... working till Thursday only.. so it suits me now...
The $10 per hour one.... so at least can earn some quick cash ....

Went for 2 classmates birthday party yesterday.... 1 at Sentosa, Tanjong beach.... and the other one at Aranda Country Club chalet...
I think both of them brought forward their birthday celebrations because of CNY... then just nice clash... guess it is 1 of the only available dates..

And so... began a rather no displacement journey... because i went to gather the few east side friends... then we went to Sentosa together... then after that come back to the east for the chalet one....
And so... effectively... it's zero displacement... -_-

Anyway.... the Sentosa ambiance was rather nice... it's at a beach cafe sort of place... KM8... buffet style... the food was good....got a waitress there very good.... haha... too bad didn't manage to get her picture...

But well... after eating the cake, we rushed off to the Arandan one... just in time for their cake cutting ceremony...

And yar... then after that stayed overnight with my classmates... met up with some long lost one... talked alot about the past... played cards... all teh way till around 0600... then i sent all fo them back, then go home....

Rested for awhile, then go out again to meet the SHG for dim sum buffet at Harbour Front....
Too tired to drive... so took a bus there... KO all the way... shag man....

There... the food also very nice... eat until very full.... think it's rather worth the money... only $20.... plus a 10% discount .... for some internal reasons....^_^ (Shhh.... cannot say....)

Then after that, we went to walk around Vivo.... then after that, i decided to go home first, while the rest went Queensway.... too tired liao... went home to sleep....
Took a bus back... also KO all the way.... totally man....

Yar... think that's about it....

Think this entry is rather incoherent... and like no link.... but at least the idea is there... haha.... rush job mah... want to go and sleep liao....

That's all...

Night soccer...

Just came back form a night soccer session... rather good match.... scored a few goals too....

Realised my left leg is rather inflexible when playing soccer... but well... with more time practicing... there shouldn't be much problem...

Basically.. that's about all that is exciting today.... another boring day of my civilian life....

Not much of a choice though... i can't commit much to a job... because i will be going to Sabah after CNY... unless it's a short term one....
But i just gave up one...recommended by JK... quite high pay short term job.... due to too much hesitation on my part....

But well.... never mind.... i'll take the time to enjoy abit more of my civilian life first...

That's all... nothing much....

Boring....... boring..... boring...............

Tiring First Day as a Civilian....

Didi nothing much today... except for for a swim in the noon.... not much people around at the pool... very shiok... it's becomes like i own a section of the pool... have it all to myself...

Swam 40 laps... took an hour plus around 20 min....

I guess it's a good slow way for me to start maintaining my fitness... time to make it a regular thing... since it will be some time before i will be doing anything productive....

But rather tired after that... i guess it's been too long since i last swarm...

Well.. officially... i am a civilian today.... haha....

Well... nothing special... rather boring actually....

Hmm.. don't know what to say liao... go play Generals le....

A new Chapter has begun......

The day is finally here..... and at the stroke of midnight, i would have officially ORDied..... haha....

Finally got back my pink IC.... been really so long since i last saw it..... ^_^

Went back camp at around 1100 today.... met up with my fellow commanders... and we proceed to process our forms together...
Rather smooth and easy process.... fill up some forms... hand over some forms... and ta dah.... PINK IC.....

Very happy that i got an Outstanding grade .. then my OC also got write a testimonial for me.... only outstanding grade then can receive testimonial one leh....

But the thing is.... the testimonial is all the same.. after comparing with some other outstanding commanders too....
Totally the same... except name and appointment.... sad man... if we went to look for the same job... the employer would definitely notice it... then maybe thought we mass print it ... no sincerity... so it's better not to be in the same job...

After that joyful event... we went AMK to eat and celebrate... went to Jack's Place... last time eating so high class together....
But i sort of ordered the wrong thing... shouldn't have ordered the steak... medium rare some more... i was rather sensitive to the blood smell..... don't really like it....
But maybe i shouldn't eat beef at all.... guess i'm partially influenced by Buddhist teachings...

After that... we went for some lan... played a game of DOTA and Generals.... for DOTA... the team i'm in won ... haha... although i only killed a few.... but we were still better....
Then for Generals... no need to say... totally OWNed them.... but well... because most of them are new to the game.... so cannot blame...
Never mind.. they can slowly train... then we can match again... haha....

While walking to my car to get home... met a sales man selling some car products... and after some demonstration and persuasion.... i finally parted my money for his goods... $70...
But that was after some consideration... because i do have a need for the products... got 1 can can make the windscreen slide water down smoothly... i need that for my Picanto... then got 1 helps to make dents and scratches look nicer... and 1 can for the vinyl and plastic parts of the car...
Bought all 3 because got discount... haha.... but i do ahve a need for them.. so yar....

Went home to rest for awhile, then went out again to meet my classmates at Marina Square to buy some presents for the 3 birthday girls this month....
Think i wasn't of much help... because i have totally no idea what to get.... just tagging along... and giving some rather lame suggestions.... haha...
But hey... it's the thought that counts...

Hmm... but maybe i should have joined the SHG for soccer?

Anyway... that's about it le....

Been wondering though... next time go out bring 11B, or Pink IC?

1 more day.....

Well..... after all this years.... months... and days.... it's finally here....

The day..... haha....

Come to think of it... it's rather fast.... so soon..... really going to miss my camp man.....

This transition.... from military to civilian... kinda weird... but i guess i'll get use to it....

Oh well.... Haiz.....

Just feeling kinda sad.....

Anyway... i finally cleared finished all my military stuffs today... packed them all into containers... got quite abit of stuffs... then plus some requires extra washing... thus the long time...

I guess... it's all part of life man... got to go through this transition.... Haiz....

Been whiling my time for the past week.... doing totally nothing constructive at all.... except for the occasional car washing... and packing my stuffs....
Quite sian... can't understand how some people can lull all the way since ORD...

Thought of going Sabah to help my parents out.... but decided against it because of the few upcoming birthday parties....
Hey... time to enjoy life abit mah.... haha....
But then again... if i go back now.. still have to come back for CNY... then like quite troublesome....

But well.... i've decided to go back with my parents after CNY... go help out... then maybe also see can climb Mount Kinabalu again... still no confirmation yet...

Going to go back camp in the morning tomorrow... see how things go....

That's all....

2SG Lim..... changing to Mr Lim....

Well Done.. Singapore Lions!!!

Once again... the Singapore Lions has done it again... haha.... Well Done man....

Not that i want to say... but i realised that the only 3 soccer matches that i watched for the full match... so far.... Singapore won all.... haha.... ^_^

Nice score by that guy.... forgot his name... A something one.... did a solo daring move... but it was a good one... scoring the equaliser goal for the Singapore team to emerge victorious overall for the Asean Football game....

Just abit curious... though i saw one of the Thai players doing a head butt sort of thing at one of our player's face.... but there wasn't any foul...
Hmm.... is it just me or what?

On the whole... think our team wasn't really that good... the Thais were definitely much faster , more aggressive, and had better team work and control of ball...
But well.... guess lucks on our side... it just takes a daring guy to upset the game for the opponent...

Once again... Congratulations to the Singapore Team!!!

Self- Realisation....

Please read the entry below before reading this... or else it will not make any sense...


Decided to carry on on another entry... because i think it will be rather lengthy...

Anyway... as i was saying... through this talk with this particular person... i suddenly realised something about me.... i have changed.....

I have changed.... so much... from my previous self..... this is no longer the me that i used to be...

For those confused... i shall share what my soul searching has revealed....

I have changed into a rather stingy and self centered person.... i don't really know how this came about... but i think this has been the root of alot of problems for me...

1 very important principle that i forgot myself, is this.. " If you want to help, expect nothing back."
I have always applied this principle when i am doing charitable work... because it is during this times that you truly help, for nothing back... it was whole heartedly from my heart to help out...
But i forgot to apply this to my friends.... i mean... although my friends are not handicapped or lying in the sick bed, they are still fellow humans.... they are my friends... and if i care to do that much for the less fortunate, shouldn't i do the same for my friends?

I'm rather sick of the me now... stingy... expecting favours....

I guess what led to that thought about the car issue... is the different forms of treatment i received for giving lifts.... because there had been people who were so kind back to me... i seem to have taken that for granted... and thought that everyone should do the same....

No... this is wrong....

Helping people.... should always be from the heart.... and i guess my over indulgence in the various issues... has blinded this principle of mine.... it's bad... really bad....

I should open up my heart.... grace the friends around me... open up my thoughts.... only then will i find inner peace with myself....
People can expect things from me, but i should never expect stuffs from those around me....

Right now.. i seem to be at war with myself....

But after this soul searching... i realised.... i did say mean things about my friends.... be they true or not... they are still mean....
I wrote words that are covered by my sins... it's not what i should have done...

For that... i apologize for all those who are affected.... all the way from my very first entry.... over this few years....
(But some comments still stay.... but i shall not say which.... because i shall be gracious to all....)

Having done that.... i think i am feeling much happier with myself now... for i have found my inner peace....
I shall change... i will no longer be the bad me.... i want to become the true good me....

It's surprising... how... when you meet the right people at the right time... they suddenly help you open a path to self actualisation....
I guess that's how people became god.... ^_^

Anyway... to my friends.... i shall forget about all the past feuds and problems.... Now... is a new beginning for me.... it's time....
The light is shinning on me now.....

Thanks to the guy....

Basketball Day....

Just returned from a basketball session.... keeping it simple and short... had a rather good session while playing amongst ourselves...

Then we later joined a group of strangers to play.... sort of owned them... because they got a very young boy playing, and his father... who was rather breathless to begin with... so... yar... they are very disadvantaged...

But just a note here... personally... i do not feel that i have in any way "fooled" the other 2 who know how to play....
If just some simple twist and turn equals to fooling around... then i had always been fooling around for every single basketball match that i have been playing...

I don't know is it because of the differences in opinion.... but i am stubbornly standing firm on my words...

Full stop....

Anyway....was sending this guy home... talked about this incident ... and believe it or not... it had led me to do some soul searching on my part... and i realised suddenly.......

To be continued...

Very hardworking day....

Today must have been one of my most hardworking day... i spent my whole afternoon washing and waxing my car... plus wash my brother's car...

Wow.....

Tiring man....

Anyway, it's been some time since i last washed my car... adn ti was even a longer time before my brother's car was washed... so yar... decided to help him too.. since he is busy with his studies...

But still... amazing man... it almost made me decide not to go Alvin's house in the evening... because it was rather late by the time i finished....

But still... went there... played a few matches of bridge... won 1, lost 1, then spent the rest of the time on the PES... trying to train up to get an Xbox.... haha....
Not much of a progress though... can't even win computer...

But still... determination will win the day.... so yar...

Then basically... after that .... went home to sleep le... rather late.. tomorrow morning still got basketball....

Day of realisation...

Just came back form a soccer session with the SHG... rather fun session... and given my long absence from playing soccer... i would say i did a rather good job in the court... scoring quite abit of goals.. something i never had a chance to do before...

I guess 1 factor that contributes to this is that we are playing amongst ourselves only.. no strangers... that's why i would feel more daring to chiong... dare to tackle.... dare to kick....
Normally, if we play with strangers... i will withhold myself more... even with basketball matches...

Distinctly remembered 1 goal... i hit the ball against the wall, go past the defender, and kicked the rebounded ball to score...
Sometimes i wonder how i do things like that also.... it's just kinda at the moment... suddenly just do it... weird huh...

That's about the most exciting that happened for the day...

For the earlier part of the day.. i was rather hardworking... went to do some household chores... changed both my fish tank water... then use the water to water my plants... did some weeding and cleaning of my garden...
In fact... i think that was my most hardworking day of all.... i had even wanted to help my brother wash his car... but realised he doesn't have a sponge in the car... so in the end scraped the idea...

And well... then comes the realisation...

It's just my habit man... i just want to write down whatever that i feel i need to say out ....

I had quite an argumentative discussion with somebody later in the afternoon... over the internet... which eventually lead to me being late for soccer... because we argued until i forgot the time...

Anyway... that's besides the point...

What i want to say...is this....

The fact that i bothered to use some strange words, that nobody would bothered much about it... is precisely because i am sensitive enough to you all.... no one knew what they mean except me...
It was because of much prodding from you that i let out some remarks on my subsequent blogs...
I mean, if you want to know so desperately... i'll let you know....

The main differences between us, is that we have different level of thoughts... maybe i would consider that as the difference between a owner and non owner... and that's what lead to this difference of opinions...

Whatever comments you make of me... i don't really care that much... because i would just put them down to the above mentioned difference... because we see things differently...
But what is disturbing is that it has been labeled as a bad character on my part... it's bad.... real bad....
By saying such things, does it make you any better? If because of such a small incident, that you mention such things... i don't think it shows much about you too...

This issue has actually already been settled... because as i have mentioned.... it's all natural, meaning i already take to the fact that, you all are like this, that's why i am no longer bothered anymore with whether or not you all care to even show anything ...
So i seriously don't understand why you want to bring it up ...

For me, it's simple, i do things the way things are done to me... if that's your thought, which i have only come to realised, then so be it... i will only do things up till my comfort, and not more, for that thought of yours...
Personally, that thought of yours, reflects an equally bad image about yourselves, if not more... because it shows the selfishness of humans...

If you don't consider whatever i have done as favours, then so be it...

True ... i may not loose much in the process.... but then, let me ask you... so the savings of yours... there are just meant for you yourselves?
So for all these cost that i am bearing, does it mean that i deserve to take them all? That i should not even expect anything ?

If that is so... then i think being a owner nowadays... is really more of a burden....because everything is expected of you... but nothing is expected back...
So what's the point of me wanting to help you all out whenever i can,when i will be bearing the cost all by myself?
So is that suppose to be fair to me?

Haiz................................................

I shall make this clear... i am already through with this issue, because i have come to accept this fact... that really, the society is as such.... no point trying to force any goodwill out from this selfish society...

I do reflect upon my own thoughts... i checked with my friend over this thought of mine.. because i was wondering if it is just my own selfish thought... because i don't understand how come i am the only one who would thought of giving something back to him, because he has been doing the favours before i became an owner....
But this friend of my, another owner, confirmed my thoughts...

After checking through my another group of friends... i only have this to say... it's really all boils down to the differences in thoughts...non owners will never understand the thoughts of owners... so i would say it is very unfair of you to say that that is bad character on my part....
I'm not blaming anyone here... i just want to clear things up..... because it is the way this society works....

So far... i would say.... none of my friends, all non owners... ever did any favours back... except owners...

So i guess... that's the reality i have to face for being an owner...

I know there will be alot of arguments following this entry... if it is so... so be it... i wouldn't wish to speak more of this issue... like i say.. i am through with it... i accepted this as reality... whatever more you all want to raise, carry on....

The thing that just irks me the most... is still the bad image thing... because as i clarify for the last time, it's the difference between our thoughts.... so you shouldn't say such things... it's bad...

Well... guess i would have incur alot of wrath for speaking up for owners...doesn't matter... i dare to say, and i mean what i say,and what i say are facts....
if i don't go to hell, who will?

Cheers.... ^_^

*Anyone offended by this post... please do think through about it before making any comments... as in seriously think through... not unhappily think through.... thanks...

Night Basketball....

Just came back from a night basketball session... had a rather satisfying game... just felt like it's been so long since i last exercised....

Slack at home too much liao....

Nothing special for the day... basically basketball is about all that happened... decided not to go swimming.. because the wind outside my house is howling so loudly... thought it will be rather cold to swim...

That's all....

5 more days....