Day of realisation...

Just came back form a soccer session with the SHG... rather fun session... and given my long absence from playing soccer... i would say i did a rather good job in the court... scoring quite abit of goals.. something i never had a chance to do before...

I guess 1 factor that contributes to this is that we are playing amongst ourselves only.. no strangers... that's why i would feel more daring to chiong... dare to tackle.... dare to kick....
Normally, if we play with strangers... i will withhold myself more... even with basketball matches...

Distinctly remembered 1 goal... i hit the ball against the wall, go past the defender, and kicked the rebounded ball to score...
Sometimes i wonder how i do things like that also.... it's just kinda at the moment... suddenly just do it... weird huh...

That's about the most exciting that happened for the day...

For the earlier part of the day.. i was rather hardworking... went to do some household chores... changed both my fish tank water... then use the water to water my plants... did some weeding and cleaning of my garden...
In fact... i think that was my most hardworking day of all.... i had even wanted to help my brother wash his car... but realised he doesn't have a sponge in the car... so in the end scraped the idea...

And well... then comes the realisation...

It's just my habit man... i just want to write down whatever that i feel i need to say out ....

I had quite an argumentative discussion with somebody later in the afternoon... over the internet... which eventually lead to me being late for soccer... because we argued until i forgot the time...

Anyway... that's besides the point...

What i want to say...is this....

The fact that i bothered to use some strange words, that nobody would bothered much about it... is precisely because i am sensitive enough to you all.... no one knew what they mean except me...
It was because of much prodding from you that i let out some remarks on my subsequent blogs...
I mean, if you want to know so desperately... i'll let you know....

The main differences between us, is that we have different level of thoughts... maybe i would consider that as the difference between a owner and non owner... and that's what lead to this difference of opinions...

Whatever comments you make of me... i don't really care that much... because i would just put them down to the above mentioned difference... because we see things differently...
But what is disturbing is that it has been labeled as a bad character on my part... it's bad.... real bad....
By saying such things, does it make you any better? If because of such a small incident, that you mention such things... i don't think it shows much about you too...

This issue has actually already been settled... because as i have mentioned.... it's all natural, meaning i already take to the fact that, you all are like this, that's why i am no longer bothered anymore with whether or not you all care to even show anything ...
So i seriously don't understand why you want to bring it up ...

For me, it's simple, i do things the way things are done to me... if that's your thought, which i have only come to realised, then so be it... i will only do things up till my comfort, and not more, for that thought of yours...
Personally, that thought of yours, reflects an equally bad image about yourselves, if not more... because it shows the selfishness of humans...

If you don't consider whatever i have done as favours, then so be it...

True ... i may not loose much in the process.... but then, let me ask you... so the savings of yours... there are just meant for you yourselves?
So for all these cost that i am bearing, does it mean that i deserve to take them all? That i should not even expect anything ?

If that is so... then i think being a owner nowadays... is really more of a burden....because everything is expected of you... but nothing is expected back...
So what's the point of me wanting to help you all out whenever i can,when i will be bearing the cost all by myself?
So is that suppose to be fair to me?

Haiz................................................

I shall make this clear... i am already through with this issue, because i have come to accept this fact... that really, the society is as such.... no point trying to force any goodwill out from this selfish society...

I do reflect upon my own thoughts... i checked with my friend over this thought of mine.. because i was wondering if it is just my own selfish thought... because i don't understand how come i am the only one who would thought of giving something back to him, because he has been doing the favours before i became an owner....
But this friend of my, another owner, confirmed my thoughts...

After checking through my another group of friends... i only have this to say... it's really all boils down to the differences in thoughts...non owners will never understand the thoughts of owners... so i would say it is very unfair of you to say that that is bad character on my part....
I'm not blaming anyone here... i just want to clear things up..... because it is the way this society works....

So far... i would say.... none of my friends, all non owners... ever did any favours back... except owners...

So i guess... that's the reality i have to face for being an owner...

I know there will be alot of arguments following this entry... if it is so... so be it... i wouldn't wish to speak more of this issue... like i say.. i am through with it... i accepted this as reality... whatever more you all want to raise, carry on....

The thing that just irks me the most... is still the bad image thing... because as i clarify for the last time, it's the difference between our thoughts.... so you shouldn't say such things... it's bad...

Well... guess i would have incur alot of wrath for speaking up for owners...doesn't matter... i dare to say, and i mean what i say,and what i say are facts....
if i don't go to hell, who will?

Cheers.... ^_^

*Anyone offended by this post... please do think through about it before making any comments... as in seriously think through... not unhappily think through.... thanks...