A reply... to whoever reading it...

Hmmm... ok... first of all.... didn't know so many people were reading my blog.... should have kept it more secret.... it is a place for me to vent my feelings afterall.. so it will defintely be provocative to some.... but since you chose to read it... be prepared to take it....

And well... ok.. maybe i was too harsh in my words in the previous entry... dono ... not in the good mood...used very heavy words.... but what's said been said....

For a deeper understanding... i do not refer the issue to all Excos or all the issues that happened in ODAC... True.. some Excos were helpful.... and those who weren't helpful were not unhelpful all the time.... that entry is directed specifically to that particular issue that happened earlier this year.... adn directly from my thoughts of all the unhappy things that i experienced....

Hey, com'on.. how would you feel if you are the only one facing a group of people who obviously had not approached me ealier for any problems... and who just lumps all the problem at one go at you... how would you feel?
And remember... i faced all of you alone... it's just like a you are a rabbit.. and surrounded by a pack of wolves.... if you are that rabbit.. how would you feel?

Some said i appeared as unreasonable... cannot take opinions and stuff.... but if you are in VS and know me... that isn't true... i AM approachable for any issues... i never closed my doors to anyone... so i don't understand why i wasn't approached for any clarification or clear any misunderstanding for whatever sort....
Do you all have to attack me at 1 go?
You think the feeling is great?
Seriously.... if any of you, those with problems with me, had just maybe meet my privately, discuss this things to me in a more approachable tone.... i would have listened... and made changes.... i would have changed my ways of doing stuffs... at least so that it would have been better for everyone....

True.. i didn't have any problems with my classmates in VS... in fact... i enjoyed my time with them.. but to see this friends that you once have spent time together turning on you... how would you feel?
Ok.. mayeb not turn on you... but suddenly just talk to you like an enemy... complain about this and that.... and all about you... how would you feel?

I admit... my points are 1 sided... because as i have said... this is my blog... i write out my points and stuffs... but these are things that happened to me... and i am the one suffering from it.... i chose to forget that particular incident... because i don't want to have hatred or anything... but these things.. they don't just disappear... they are just buried... and will resurface when mentioned... and it just so happened kait loong mentioned it.. that i remembered it...

i remember my feelings at that time... how "betrayed" i felt.... you would not have this feelings if you weren't me...

And i did not... i repeat... did not at any point of time refuse to listen to any suggestions.... i am more than welcome with it.... just that that doesn't seem to get on with you guys....

I do and see things on the whole.... my objectives are clear.. i just want to be a good president... together with the help of my fellow ODACians.... especially the EXCOs....
Maybe... like Shuming said... we should have more of those thrashing out sessions... maybe things would have been better.... maybe i would realise more of my own mistakes... maybe some of the ODACians may have realised their own mistakes as well.....

I am not perfect... i do make mistakes... sometimes i may not realise where i am going at.. as i mentioned... i lacked the experience... and that's why i need you people's help.... but i don't see help as coming on me all together as once...

Those who know me well knows my living conditions... maybe that's why i don't like facing big crowds of people together.... especially if it is against me....

Till this point... i seriously dono what i am trying to do... maybe trying to save myself... maybe trying to save losing friends... maybe trying to refute replies from another blog..... whatever....

The point is.... those were my feelings, and ir eally felt that way.... and as hard as i wish to drop the issue.... i still can't forget this incidents... they seem to over shadow the good things that happened in ODAC....

In any case... it is over... and i do not wish to probe further into the issue....

Those affected.... maybe you want to asked me put for some coffee to talk it out?