Haiz... i lost my brother....

I lost my Brother.... the real brother.. blood related one...
But lost not as in literally.. just the feel....

Haiz...as mentioned in my previous entry... he really worship his girlfriend like God like that...

And sometimes... i think they are really meant for 1 another.... both don't tidy up the room, or anything that they have used... both don't do the housework, like washing their bowls after use...

I sometimes really buay tahan my brother man.... got his girlfriend to come over and stay... then my house suddenly become their house like that.... hogged onto the master bedroom, then i can't use the toliet inside....

And yesterday, 1 more reason why i couldn't use the modem was that they used it in the master bedroom, and i think when i reach home they sleep liao... so i can't take anything from there....

And now my Brother like do everyhthing is for the girlfriend one... the house like become hotel like that... happy go.. happy stay... then happy happy use the utensils and leave it for me to wash....

Haiz.... i really wonder... next time if they get married.. then the house.... WOW~~~ i bet a pig farm is even neater....

Haiz... enough of him... anyway i also don't see him often... though he comes back from camp on weekends... the time is spent with his girlfriend... even when in the same house... i can't feel him anymore.... he just lock himself in the room with his girlfriend....

Aiya.... don't care him liao....

In case you all wonder how come i sometimes write out my personal matters and stuff... and why my blog very lengthy....
Well... it's because this is like my diary... and it's the only thing i can talk to... since my brother doesn't contact with me anymore.... adn i tend to write out feelings and stuff... to release the bottled up feelings... i feel better when this feelings are written out...
And i tend to be lengthy because i think alot... so the more i think, the more i write....

Actually... i think i did something wrong... shouldn't have share my blog to too much people...
Because got some personal things... but i guess also not much people know about it.. except my closer friends... so still ok...

And come to think of it... i should get a pet... so i can talk to it... Haha... ("ki siao" arh...)..
Though i got grow cactus and plants... they don't show me any expressions or stuff, then also don't move... so not much fun... getting a pet will be nice..

Personally, i had always wanted a dog... but my mum say too troublesome.. and i allergic to the fur... so cannot... then because of my living conditions... the dog will suffer because of lack of attention... because most of the time only i will be around... then if i go army... then no one will take care of it liao... that goes for "Chincillas" as well....

So.... the next best option... get a tortise... no need much attention... easy to carry around...
But since my parents are not around at the moment... think i will go get it myself... at least then there will be another life in the house with me....

Wel.. today i did nothing the whole day.. stayed at home.. play computer.. watch TV... and pang seh TWK on playing pool... because i really don't want to play pool on weekends.. Expensive... somemore only 2 of us... the cost will be higher... and the other VS SRJC gang people went chalet.. so also not much mood to go out......
i would prefer go cycling... free... and healthy...
But i udnerstand his condition... he got not much days left....
....to enlistment...( what u thinking...).. so will defintely make careful use of his time to enjoy.. but i really no mood leh.... haiz... see how ba... maybe the next few days...

WA... this entry also quite long liao... guess i will stop here... maybe tomrrow try to find my way to the chalet.... my solo mission on bike~~~