A day for reflection...

The wind is howling outside my room now.... the trees are swaying...

It's been like this since yesterday...I don't even haven to switch on the fan to sleep... it's so cold and windy...

Well.. that's December for you... cold and windy all month round...

Anyway... decided to do some blogging today.... since my lesson in the morning was cancelled.. it was postponed to Monday night...till 2200hrs... -_-".. i've got a class on Tuesday morning... so i think it would be better for me to camp in school....

As for the reflection... well... i had a PSOC test yesterday... sociology class test to be exact... and though it is not counted towards my final score... i just feel lousy that i am going to flunk it....
Hmmm.... honestly.. i didn't prepare enough for it... i was practically speed-reading through the notes... and so i can't really recall anything while taking the test...
I feel bad.. because the lecturer is going to mark my piece of rubbish.... and i think that is really bad....
Especially when i did reasonably well for the first one... so the drastic drop is bad...

The worst was... i see the questions... and i know the answers... but i can't recall... darn....
Well.... there's alot of reading and memorising in Sociology... and i guess in a way, i took it too easily...i breeze through the lecture notes... and i even went on to do additional readings on the course books... when all the requirement is in the lecture notes..
And as a result... i didn't have time to finish studying totally.... yup...

Well... it's actually not a very big deal... because it's just a class test... some didn't even bother to turn up for it.... but i just feel responsible man... letting the lecturer mark my rubbish...

Oh well.. some reflections here... makes me feel better... haha...

One thing though... i seriously don't like alot of the lecture notes... because they are basically print outs of powerpoint slides... i mean... lecture notes should be really notes... not powerpoint... personally view... i know it won't change anything....
It was one thing that i found out when i was reading the course books... the notes are rather "cha-pa-lang"... not in a very good order for understanding... when i read the books, the picture seem much clearer....

Oh well... it's over... i shan't not dwell over it...

The Standard Chartered Marathon is this Sunday.... any reflection here.... or more of a confession.... haha... i haven't run this whole week.... and the furthest i've done for my whole training is 10km... i had wanted to do some warm-up read on Wednesday, when i have no school, or this morning....
But well... plain lazy.... haha... i've totally no motivation to run.... in fact... i've never liked running.... but i join this marathon because i want to get the shirt... haha...
But well.... if this can lessen my guilt... the weather played a part too... i'm not sure about other areas... but this few days... in the east side... it always seem to be like it's going to rain, but it didn't rain... then there's dark clouds... and lighting... and at times it would rain rather heavily...
And so.... yep.... further excuses for not running....

Even as i am blogging now... the wind outside is howling.. and the sky is dark... i'm not sure if i want to go for a run then....

But nevertheless... i am still confident of myself... i can complete the race... no matter how slow i am... haha...
I remember the first time i climbed Mount Kinabalu... it was when i just my O levels... and i have totally no training before hand... just whack... haha....
Even for the 2nd time... i've actually been slacking in the army for quite long... but i think the base that i've built up during trainings helped me alot.... it was much easier the 2nd time round...

It's all in the mind.... ^_^

Anyway, the recommendation was that today is suppose to be a rest day.... (more excuses...)

Oh well... that's all...

Sunday.... a test of the mind...

Hi~~~

Been sometime since my last blog again... haha...

Been rather pre-occupied with the same stuffs... work.. school work... training....

But form now on, i'll be rather free... because my job has sort of stopped for the time being... so i have more time on my hands...

Just went to get my marathon pack last Friday... got the number tag 10779... when i went to collect, i suddenly felt an urge to go on with my training.....
I saw quite a bit of people queuing up to get their pack.... teens... male... female... old man.. old woman.... not that old lar... haha.... but looks like they are in their 50s...
I mean... if they have the courage to run this marathon, i should have more than enough reason to challenge it, and complete it...

Kinda motivate me... to start moving my legs... i have been putting off running for 2 weeks... busy here and there... lazy... alot of reasons...

Honestly... the furthest i've ever done till now is only 10km... haha...

I believe alot of people are going to say i am not going to make it...that's like only 1/4 of it...

Well... i wouldn't disagree with that.... haha....

But after my run just now, which i did 8.4km, and had to stop due to the rain... in fact... i was running through the rain... which came and go, came and go.... so i was like totally soaked....
Anyway, what i want to say was that, i sort of realised a method that allows me to just keep jogging...and i was able to go very long distances without feeling tired...

It's what i call run thinking....

Haha... i know... lousy name...

Anyway, it's actually running, but thinking about all other things.... except the run... so you basically let your mind wander off... then suddenly, you don't feel the run anymore... it's like in a zombie state, where you just keep on running.... without taking note of the surrounding... you won't feel tired... you won't even feel the surrounding....

That's how i got through the rain... just that when it began to rain rather heavily, i had to take note of it.. and run faster to shelter.... haha....

And so... there i have it... my secret for the marathon... haha... so if i am running and i don't respond to anything... you know what i am doing...

This method has also been taught in The Straits Time... yup....

And so... next Sunday's the big day... so we shall see if i can get the finisher's medal and shirt...

If i get it... the following week i am going to wear it to school man... if i can still walk... ^_^

That's about what's big that is going to happen...

School wise...i'm still good with it... not much problems around...

Hmmm.. guess that's all liao...

A Holiday... Finally...

Today is Deepavali... i think it's spelt this way...

Anyway... yep... kinda happy... finally got a full day to wake up date.. rest... slack...

Manage to do a couple of things yesterday... since i only worked in the morning till afternoon... and was free from then on...

Brought my handphone to the Nokia Service Center at Parkway for repairing... there's some problem with my N80... whenever i slide open my phone, the screen will go blank and hang... for very very long... abit fed up with the phone... but i checked with the customer service and they mentioned it's a rather common problem because it's a slide phone...

Hmm... that shows they still need some improvement on their sliding technology...
And so right now, i'm using my brother's Sony Erricson old phone... not very familiar with the functions.. don't really want to use it much... and so i won't be calling or SMSing much this few days... until 1830hrs this coming Saturday... when i get back my N80...

Wait... just got a call... i can get it tomorrow le... haha.... that's a very good news... haha...

After settling my phone, i went to get my long awaited Disc...
Finally.... after holding back my urge to buy the disc for so long... i finally got it...

Ayumi Hamasaki A Best 2-Black...

If anyone can remember, i was talking about this disc i think start of this year or dono how long ago... very very long time ago...

Right now.. i am actually watching to the MTVs while blogging...

Finally got it... after so long.... actually what sort of pushed me to get it was because of one song, "Heaven"... i was quite touched after seeing it on YouTube... and i just have to get it...
Another reason too, was that i have been driving around for so long... i do need some new disc to keep me company in the car...

In fact, for the whole of this week plus last week... i have been driving every time for work and school... so it's like almost everyday....
And that made me realised that CDs are important because sometimes the radio can get very crappy... so you need some songs to keep you awake...

Thirdly, i have been earning some money here and there... and so... i deserve some reward myself yar~~~

But it wasn't a perfect transaction... because after i got home to open the disc, i found that the plastic holding the disc has broke into several parts... which was unacceptable to me... i cherish my disc... they should have to be in perfect condition....

And so... this morning, i went back to the shop to get it changed... it was a smooth operation.. because i think the cashier recognised me from the day before... and so he promptly took another disc, and did a disc swoop, and there i have it... a better condition disc and disc cover... ^_^

And yep... that's the story of how i got my A Best-Black...

As for the white version... well... wait for awhile more then buy... haha...

Going to be busy after today.... as mentioned earlier... i am having an ATC... from Friday till Sunday, and the lesson takes up almost 3/4 of the day... except for Friday, which takes up the whole night....

Then there is Elton's birthday celebration on Saturday night....

Darn.... i am really a very busy man.... and very soon, i am going to start my Japanese language lesson... then i will really have no time to do much things liao...
Good in a sense... i am occupied with things to do... i guess it would be better than having nothing to do... and also, it will make me appreciate my free time more... makes it more valuable...

As the Chinese saying goes... if you've never been through the coldness of winter, you won't know the warmth of summer....
Sometimes, i really do believe in making myself suffer more... so that i will appreciate what i have, and enjoy it more...
I think this applies to alot of things in life.... like free time, watching movie, or whatever whatever...

Well... going to rest abit... then start with my work liao...

Work Work Work....

Sort of used up my weekends for work liao... manning a carnival at Bishan Park for these 2 days... yesterday was till evening... then today although it's till 1500hrs... the after packing and sending stuffs back to home ground delayed me till around 1800hrs before i reach home... not much better from yesterday....

And so... coming back.... all tired... but still have to go do some chores...

Haiz......

Rather tired....

And the thing is... at the booth, i was practically engaged 100% of the time... the queue at our booth was never ending man.....
I mean.. of course... free archery... who don't want... haha...

In a way, it's good... i feel a sense of achievement teaching people about it... but on the other hand, it's rather tiring... because i am concentrating for a few hours on the job...

And the after effect... i get very tired at home...

For the whole of next week... i am packed again... with work and school... For tomorrow, it's work in the morning, afternoon send my mum to checkpoint, then school....
Same for Tuesday... Wednesday morning working again...
Then from Friday till Sunday, i'm involved in a Archery Technical Course, aka ATC...
That will also take out my weekend liao....

Haiz........

Time...it's never enough...

Tired.... Haiz....

Some personal thoughts here... my company... in sending me for this ATC... i believe was some kind of strategy to keep me working for a longer time.. maybe even as a permanent job...
I mean, i'm only a part-time stuff, but i was chosen to go for this course, which is meant for full-time staff...
In a way, it's good as it shows that i am competent in my job.. but if it is for working full-time, like maybe after graduation... i think i'll have to think about it for awhile...
Well... not that i don't like the job... but i think i need something more... more stable... better pay... stuffs like that...
I can think of a solution to that though... venture into a partnership... haha...

Oh well... just an idea....

I'll see how things go first ba.....

Alright... got to go rest liao....i still have a long day tomorrow... -_-

B-U-S-Y

One word sums it all...

Same old routine... school, work, school work....now i'm even working today and tomorrow...

The bad thing.... no OT one... haha... that's a part-time job man....

But well, it's still good to have something to do...

Yep... i think that's all about my life... for now... nothing much.... just school, work, schoolwork...

Oh yar... before i forgot... i have some pictures of my paintball last Sunday downloaded...

By the way, the guy on the extreme right is me...
















And please don't ask me why i am closing my eyes... i dono why... -_-"