Haiz..... - _-

Just came back from another rather enjoyable soccer session... very nice playing atmosphere...
Though i did not play as well today... didn't score or help to score much goals.. it was still fun...
And yar... i got a nice workout too... that's what important... ^_^

This afternoon i specially drove to SIM, just to let them verify my certificates...
Abit dumb... because my certificates were actually already verified by UniSIM, so it's like this 2 centers are operating in the same school, but like cannot share the things....
But then again, they got their rules and stuffs... so i guess it had to be done...

Was just thinking through about my life.... began to have something quite hard hitting back at me...

For now, it's kinda confirmed already i am heading to SIM.... NTU,NUS and SMU is quite confirmed to be out for me already.... i am now waiting for my appeal results....

Sometimes... i do feel like i'm quite a failure... in the sense that... i can't even get into one of the local 3 universities.... unlike most of my fellow Victorians.... well.. at least those i am hanging with at SRJC.....
In fact, so far i only know of another fellow Victorian in my plight.... and he happened to be in my class.... -_-"

It's feel.... like i'm a disgrace to VS .... i felt so out-casted.... i'm like breaking the tradition of VS....
It's like when they are talking about going NTU and NUS to do this and that.... i feel very left out... i'm not going there man....

To think of it.... i've actually been scrapping through my studies since VS.... i just made it to a JC... and i knew it was kinda lucky for me....
CCA wise... i'm also not doing well.... Track and field... my discus sucks at National level.... ODAC.... don't mention man.... i never though heading a club can be so disastrous for me...
All my goals and expectations... none came about.....
I don't do well in studies.... and i also don't do well in CCAs... especially as a President..... i do admit i did a terrible job at it man....

Haiz..........................................................................................................................................

Man... sometimes i really do think i am such a failure in life....

At times, i do wish that i don't have any of my material comfort now, and i'll just do good in my studies....

Haiz.............................

Also dono what i am talking about already.... think all these spare time is allowing my mind to keep thinking alot... thinking too much into stuffs....

Getting abit low....

Well.... think i should go get some sleep.... maybe a good night's sleep will make me better....