Night's off....

Actually my platoon is given night's off today at 1430... because they missed a night's off some time ago... so sort of compensate them back...

But well... becuase of my car... i was like the only one left... the rest of my specs all booked out liao.... so i took the chance to sleep.. and pack my stuffs...
Just came back... then yesterday kena go become enemy liao... then fight overnight... so abit tired....

Think i still a little bit lost around... sometimes like will stun abit here and there... think i haven't come back to my unit... still trainee mood... haha...
Oh well... i will get over it...

Well.. nothing much to write liao... tomorrow going to watch Superman Returns with my fellow specs.... think it will be a good show....

Hmm... think go abit of DOTA first then book in... haha...

Chill~~~

Booking in tomorrow....

Well.. since i got the permission from my PC.. might as well use it... tomorrow morning then book in... haha...

Doing some last minute entry before i go to sleep le....

Just to continue... finally watched finish the ending of "April Snow"... because soccer this morning was cancelled... so i took the chance to finish watching the ending... very abrupt ending... like although the show end le... i still dono how it ends....

Oh well... never mind...

And as it should have been.... i spent the rest of the day palying DOTA again.... think i am quite hooked on le.... have to start controlling myself le... haha....
But i guess what actually makes me want to play is due to the fact that you can paly the games with friends... although the game itself is also important...

Play quite long... match after match... got SHG... got Jun Rong and his friends... and i would say... i think i have improve quite abit le... no longer the last one... no longer the one with no frags... in fact.. i contribute alot in killing heroes too...
Well... think i can take away the "noob" title le... at least now is a private soldier liao...no longer recruit.... haha...

Anyway...after that.. rushed now to play soccer with SHG... there got some rather good malay players... so we played for a few matches.. then went on to play basketball... so in a way.... sort of achieved a promise of basketball on Saturday,and soccer on Sunday....

Soccer wise... think my performance quite satisfying.... blocked a few shots... missed out on some.. some reaction problem... haha... but i will learn from it...

Then later at basketball... mainly played amongst ourselves... got win got loose... but find that basketball is still my favourite... very veyr long didn't play... but still can perform qutie well.... quite satisfied with myself...

Then basically...after that...went home to prepare all my book in stuffs... file and sprayed my ET.... prepare to book in tomorrow....

That's basically what happened today....

Some thoughts here...

Honestly... i felt quite hurt when "somebody" mentioned that i jio him play DOTA is because i want a weak player to join in the game... so that i can frag him... because i am so far the weakest palyer around....

I mean.... i really cannot expect this out from someone who have known me so long... and i am sure those who know me well... will never even have the slightest thought that i am this kind of people.... jio a new weak player in to frag him.... Kaoz...

I don't want to defend myself or anything here... those who know me will know it... but i just want to make things clear here...

Firstly... why i want to jio "him" to play DOTA... is simply because i want "him" to be able to join in the fun that we have... it's like the rest of us are all playing.... then when we meet up.. we got a common topic.... then the one not playing will be like the odd one out... nothing to say.... something like what happenes when theya re discussing soccer... and i am the quiet one around...

Ok.. fine... you did try before.. and you don't find it fun.... but initally i also like that.... it's when u learn to play the game... then you start to know how to play well... and that's when the fun begins...

To be honest... when i started playing the game... i know nuts about how to play... and those guys who jio me to play... taught me nothing on it... i was totally clueless... then always kena frag... then they like very happy like that... becuase see me then equals free frag.... some friends they are....
Initally... i also stopped playing le... because i see no point in playing...
But i guess lucky for me... my brother got play... so he taught and guide me along on how to play... and with some tips from other friends... i began to understand the game... and that's when the fun begins.... now i can kill le....

But i guess i won't really blame it all on "him"... i mean... the people who jio him to play initally also didn't teach him how to play... then just keep fragging him like pig like that.... so that isn't really a point to continue playing the game...

So...... haiz... like i mention before... 2 hands to clap.... we should reflect upon this....every single one...

And to quote another incident.... the change in basketball timing yesterday was discussed while playing DOTA... then no body tell "him"... so "he" went to the court in the morning to find himself alone there.... this was where the information flow didn't get to him.... another disadvantage.... because the flaw ith humans is that they can forget... that's why...

As it is all... i just want to mention this thing once and for all.. think i talk about it alot of times liao... but that bugger doesn't seem to change at all... and seriously... i think his attitude did in some way affect "him" too....

From playing DOTA... to soccer... to basketball.... i am very annoyed with the "negativity" produced by some bugger... really very annoyed already..... especially the bloody comments... honestly... they don't help your team mates... it just make them very du lan... please do get this in your head....
Honestly... seriously.... i have endured this long enough already...i am going to say it all out.... so from now on... since there is no change... i will just ignore it liao.... so any negativity.. i will just shut it up....
It's like since the beginning.... no matter play what games or sports... always will ahve this "negativ ion" around one... either to make some stupid coments to piss others off.... or simply just to act smart or something... i dono.... i was on the verge of bursting out at this bugger during the soccer this evening... but controlled myself....

I can't understand why some people can just shoot unitelligent comments out just liike that... no thoughts at all... seriously.... no considerations of the team-mate's thoughts.... no nothing...

HAIZ...... think enough said le... whether or not that bugger gets it... i don't really care liao... let fate run it's way....

And in case any of you are doubting... i do take cooments seriously.... and i do my best at every game i play... i may make mistakes... but i do learn from them... and try to improve from there... i welcome constructive suggestions... but not un-intelligent grunts or whatever....


Haiz.... talk so much le... think also offend enough people liao... want to shoot back just shoot... i welcome them.... go sleep liao....

DOTA day.....

Today play DOTA whole day sia... play until abit siao liao... if not for a chalet cum bbq session helded by my cousin... i think i would carry on playing from afternoon to night man.... haha...

In the morning was as usual... slacking around... then afternoon SHG jio DOTA... so started palying in the afternoon...

Actually morning suppose to play basketball one... then becuase yesterday night play DOTA till 0300 this morning... then we decide to change it to evening... but in the end also didn't play... because we chiong DOTA all the way.... then also i got to attend the bbq...

Poor Wee Keat though... no one told him of the change.... then he went to the courtin the morning ... alone.... Oops.... WK... must play DOTA liao man... haha...

Had quite a satisfying game... although i didn't manage to win any... and somemore some matches kena thrash by TYS cousin and brother... dono how they build up one.... me and JK 2 on 1 also loose sia...
Well.... maybe i lousy lar.... but it's ok.. it's the process i enjoy... the ending.. if win, it's a bonus... if loose.. it's still ok... haha...

Then after that.. waitd for my brother to come back.. then went to the chalet... at PAsir Ris avenue there one... those big bungalows...

Went there... and basically just eat and watch TV.... talk around...
But i still feel we are like the odd one outs... becuase that side mainly is my cousin's church friends... so although we know some of them... but it's been like ages since we last met up.... so there is the sort of "gap" between... then also not much topic to talk about... only got another NSF there... same age as me... but he is a combat medic in 2nd Bridgae.. so quite a different level of serving the nation... so also not that much a topic...

We chilled until everyone go ... then my aunt they all also want to go off le.. then we went off together...
Then that's about it liao...

Came home... wanted to see finish the ending for "April Snow"... because the other time i watch the movie until fall asleep.... quite boring i would say...
And so... guess what?

I fell asleep again... with the TV everything running.... haha... continue in next entry... becuase this should be Sunday's affair liao...

As you would have guessed... this entry is written on Sunday one... haha...

Slacking around....

Today is a slacking around day... woke up late... watch TV... play DOTA....

Just came back from playing pool with SHG... didn't really win any match... think i abit not used to the table so big.... but well.. i would still say i played well... my sots were almost accurate for alot of times... haha...

Anyway... actually going to play DOTA with them now one... but because my brother playing with his friends... i got to wait for him to finish... and so i missed out on their game... now got to wait for next match....

Oh well... going to play soon liao... calling le... haha..

Muahahaha.....

Yo yo yo... i'm back... fellas... yo yo yo.... back to 2 SIR... yo yo yo.... haha...

POP liao.... form the 148th Platoon Sergeant Course.... got off till next monday... yoyo.... cya around....

Today is my book in day....

Well.... the seemly quite long but actually short weekend is going to be over soon... but at least i got 2 night's of rest at home... then also no need to book in so early tonight... 2330... going back to 5 day week liao... and no more outfield.... Yeah~~~

So the mood more happy... haha...

This morning... went to play soccer with the SHG (Senghou gang).... was keeper all the way.... anyway i think that is the other position i can play....
Got a cold start... think i too long never play sports... then outfield too much... so the reaction not very good... saved a little bit of goal.... Concede alot...up till a point where the opponents (formed by strangers) were mocking me liao... can jsut shout goal while shooting the ball... think they are really very confident of thrashing me....
Haiz.... the feeling sucks.... but at least most of the balls were those form an angle then shoot to the other corner of the goal post that type.... can save... but abit difficult those type...

Also dono what happened... suddenly during the round in the afternoon.... the whole body like getting heated up like that... feeling some adrenaline rush... and that was when i suddnely became more alert, and reactive to the balls... i saved many many balls... even those at odd angles... or direct shoot... all manage to save... Woa...
I tihnk i saved more balls in that round alone than my all the other matches add up together... cool man....
That's when we manage to win 1 match.... but lost the subsequent one....

But still.... not too bad... after that i was like keep saving goals.... only occasionally let in some.... so on the overall... i think it's still quite ok ba....quite a good game...

After that... went for lunch at KFC... ate like a king man... veyr long didn't eat so good liao.... haha....

Then after that.. sent most of them home... then i went home to prepare for the battle.... DOTA over the network....
Total got 5 of us.... play around here and there... can feel most people don't want me in their team... can understand that...
Then also dono why alot of times is haven't complete the game... then got people quit... then the rest all follow suit.... so we didn't really completed any games fully... think some give up liao.... very low fighting spirit i would say....
But well... their choice....

Used a variety of other heroes... found that actually Beastmaster is quite good for me too... haha.... aside from prophet...
But well... will continue to learn to use more variety of heroes.... better that way...

Nothing much liao... think go study abit for my platoon tactics test tomorrow le....

Shld be back on Thursday... if my PC give me leave/off.. haha...


* Thinking thoughts....

Just like to share something which i "self-actualised" during my drive to join the SHG for soccer.... i realised one thing...

Often... people tend to be unhappy because they either demand too much from themselves, or demand too much from others....

It's over.....

Finally... it's over.... Muahahahaha... no more outfield for the PS course... and now coming close to the end of the course... next week last week liao... Yeah~~~~

Finally... the so call "Hell Week"(although i know is nothing compared to the divers one)... 4D3N... or in actual fact is 3 full days of Tekong tour is over... no more chionging around... no more wet boots...

Came back yesterday night... quite late... close to 2300 then reach home... because we spent the whole afternoon cleaning up our stores... and especially the weapons... clean very long.. but at least everything is done up... and good to POP....
Was so tired... on the way back have to slap myself to wake up man.... drive until can sleep... becuase it was qutie a long way... so i actually drove abit faster.... get home faster....

For the exercise... also know as "Exercise Hawk".... went through a UO,quick attack,defence(including digging of shellscrapes),patrol, and lastly a deliberate attack which includes digging in a shellscrape and also a CWO....
And throughout the whole exercise... i didn't change my uniform at all... so i am something like mud liao...join earth as one... the uniform brown colour one...
And a very lame thing.... because they last minute change the life vest.. then we had to re test the new life vests...so on Thursday evening... we don on the vest and went into the water... when our CWO is at 0500 on Friday morning... and so it's like i was stuck in wet uniforms and boots throughout... lazy to change out... and no point also... lucky the uniform dried quite fast...

I seriously doubting the TSR man... on Tuesday afternoon before we move out to Tekong.. we went to test the old vest already... specially change into PT kit just to go into water, then check for servicibility of the vest, then come out.... -_-
I mean.. why not jsut get a big pail of water, and go to the swimming pool, then push the whole thing down, then check for bubbles? Wouldn't it be easier?
I dono.... maybe they have some other motives for getting us all wet just to test the vest.... heck... it's over...

Anyway... after the attack... then took out my boots... it was like already 1100 plus.... my whole leg was pale white.... and the skin is very wrinkled... and smelly.... Phew...

But well...other than that.... everything was quite ok...didn't kena much appointments... because i already cleared mine earlier on... just that felt quite sian doing all the attacks.... but at least.. i would admit... i learnt more things... refreshed alot on my infantry skills... learnt more about the role of PS.. learnt to organise stuffs....

Honestly.. i would say i really benefited alot from this course man... haha...but i don't think i want to coem back for CSM one... think do one thing enough le...

And well.. just now played a game of DOTA with TYS, and (KL,Alvin and their friends)... didn't manage to kill any heroes... because they are all good players... so well... think TYS is getting very good at it liao...
But at least my scores is not last... because i do kill alot of creeps.... haha... i keep chionging one... kena killed time and time again... but still come back...

Just one thing i wish to say out man.... i seriously don't like people who just throw the newbies one side.. and leave them to play themselve...
After the first not completed game... ALvin pushed me away ... don't want me to be in the same team...
Then in the 2nd game... i was told to defend the bottom... and basically i was just palying the game on my own... no team play.. i just bashed through the towers by myself... while the other 2 heroes go on and kill happily by themselves...

Honestly... i can understand the anguish when you are with a newbie.. but that doesn't mean you just push him oneside to fend for himself right?

Aiya... whatever the case...anyway.... i also don't really care.... maybe i can learn better that way... and i make sure i train till i can kill on my own... no need any help... because i am qutie sick of the "repel the weak" sydrome already....

Don't worry... i don't mind playing by myself.. in fact ... i think it's better.... because there is no one there to KB me...

Oh well... that's about it.... go train up my DOTA liao...

Booking in early.... haiz...

As mentioned... i will be booking in early today... have to reach camp around 2030 to prepare the Ops order... so blogging early too... haha...

Nothing much... rested at home the whole day... think because the whole week not enough sleep... yesterday before 2000 i went to lie on the bed.. then knock out liao.... haha...

But well... today woke up early... around 0600... then just sit around the computer... watch DVDs and TV....play DOTA... that's about all for my day... simple...

This upcoming week.. last week of outfield for the course liao... looking forward to end it... will be back on Friday night... finally.. getting closer to go back to my unit...

Not much thoughts.... just wana finish the course...

By the way... COngratulations to 3SG Ong J K.... haha... welcome to the Specialist core....

Till Friday then....


Add on at 1725:

Just finish a game of DOTA with KL and dono who else... think Alvin Gan... was a very satisfying game... bought quite alot of powerful stuffs.... helped to kill alot of heroes.. killed 2 myself... or maybe 3... haha... satisfying.. guess i chose the correct hero to train... some Prophet guy....
And i gave the last strike to the giant crystal thingy... ended the game... heez..

Anyway... got to go pack up... and go for dinner... my brother birthday tomorrow... but i will be preparing to go outfield... so well.... eat tonight lor...
Till then....

Back from a long week of outfield...

Well... finally... here i am... back again... after a whole week of Operations and stuffs.... quite tiring.... and sleepy...

Whole week didn;t really rest as well...monday went out for an attack.. then Wednesday went for a defence exercise.. something like "Nutcracker" in BSLC.. just that this time we have to dig a GPMG trench as well... all the way till Thursday... didn't really sleep as much...

Then on Friday... i was the exercise PC for a Urban Operation... so while the rest are resting on Thursday night.. i am doing Ops order... sian...
But at least... i am happy to say... the mission went well... and very coordinated... guess that's the end of my assessment liao... heez...

Then this morning did some CWO training... going to do one before our finaly objective next week....

I guess till this point liao... i just want to go through everything... adn just end the course happily... i don't have the desire to get any best whatever.. i just want to finish the course.. because honestly... i don't like doing all the outfield all over again... expecially when i no longer need them much as a Mortar commander...
But i shouldn't be complaining... at least i am infantry trained... there is a 1SG MP, who know nuts about infantry... haven't been outfield for a few years.. didn't even know how to use a SAR 21... he is also there... guess it's no choice what... anyway he is a regular... so well.. suck it up....

Well... 1 more week of outfield to go.. adn that will be it liao man.... looking forward to go back to 2 SIR.... haha...

End of my short weekend....

Will be booking in soon.... reaching back camp by 2000... because tomorrow preparing for operation liao... quite sian.... saturday came back late.. sunday book in early...
But well.... what to do... suck it up...

Rested the whole day...Watched some DVDs borrowed form my course mate... who lives nearby... in Bedok North... so yesterday sent him home.. then also got some DVDs from him.. to pass my time today....
It's been qutie a while since i slept till so late then wake up... really enjoyed it man... think this coming week will be as bad as well.... but the worse should be the next week... my summary exercise...
But i always have a positive thinking to keep myself going... at least next week will be the last week of outfield liao... and somemore Friday book out... so well... just get it over and done with....
Missed a division exercise for my unit... not very good... because that means i got 1 less chance to practise my craft man.... but well... no choice lor...

Been listening to a few songs recently... which i think very nice... like J J Lin's "su neng shen qiao", and Cao Ge's "Superwoman", and "zhu guang wan chan".... think music is like a very positive energy pushing me through the "sianess" of this course man.....

Think i have been pretty draggy and naggy about the course.... i guess that arise from my already very negative view on going for course... i will try to improve on that... haha... but sometimes i guess the feeling can't be helped... really was so negative initally man...
But recently got a very good advise from one of the more slack warrant there... last time is also one fo the PCs in my ASLC course company....
He said this" If you are angry for 1 minute, it means you just lost a minute of happiness."
Find it very meaningful.... haha... guess we should try to keep our live as happy as possible.... try to remove most neagativites....

Oh well... think i start to crap alot le... guess that's about all... go prepare book in liao....

*Platoon Sergeants... CHIONG arh" ^_^

Finally back....

Well... finally back again.... felt like quite a long week... like pass a day like a year like that.... and this morning just did my GPMG live firing... that's why drag until 1730 then book out.....

Had been a pretty tiring week.... every night also sleep quite late... either doing ops orders... or else cleaning the GPMG....
Seriously.... i think i really got to respect those GPMG gunners man.... cleaning that particular weapon... is very.. very tough..... takes a long time... and the weapon is not easy to clean... and some more got so many parts...

Actually today's live firing finished at around 1400... by the cleaning wasted alot of time... but luckily... we got help form the CSM course trainees... so it was faster...

But i would say... firing the GPMG is really quite thrilling... so although the morning was quite hot... the rounds also... touched one round that was just fired off... can feel it burning my skin....
But still.... it was quite fun.... haha... not much chance to test out SAF weapons liao.... because i guess i am stuck with mortar le...

Anyway...outfield starting next week.... going to chiong for the next 2 weeks liao... but at least after that... it is all relax one liao.... so looking forward to the end of the outfields.... CHIONG arh!!!

Just that got one thing bothering me... quite annoyed with the PS course IC... really damm loud hailer... action full... and like to KB people alot... and today i kena KB twice for nothing...
Feels better to say it out man....

First one... after the live firing.. we went back to the training shed at wingline to get our packed ration... i was among the first few to get the food... then i walked slowly to the bench...
Then one of my platoon mate KB me for slowly walking... tell me to hurry up go sit down and eat... and so.. for those who know me... i will retailate... trying to reason out with him... because first of all...i seriously don't think that few seconds of dilly dally will do much difference.. and secondly... i don't have a sppon to eat with... so i am waiting for the storeman to take it...
My this friend also another one say things never really think one... will piss people off one... so he also got some reasons to counter me back...
SO in the mist of our arguement... the PS course IC walk past... and then he started to KB me... say what i shouldn't dilly dally around any more...hurry up go eat.... or else later the time will drag.. what clean GPMG drag.. then eat dinner drag.. then book out drag.. then don't blame him for that or whatever bullshit...
I dono about you all... but at that time... i got really pissed off....
I wanted to argue back.. but i think i was too hot-headed... so i just say... ok.. fine....
I mean.. hey ... come one... can at least think before you speak or not... like i explain earlier on... i dilly dally ... does it make a significant difference to the book out time?
And let's look at the situaton... i am among the first few to take... and we all got no spoon... so does that mean that by sitting down faster, we can all eat finish fast? And even if i sit down faster, and eat... will the others eat faster too?
And so.. i seriously don't see why is there a need to KB me on such nonsense...
In case he haven't noticed... we are all commanders around here... so is there a need for such a senseless talking ? Maybe if you are a recruit, yes... but i certainly do not think that is necessary for a commander... especially a PS to be....
And.... by the way.. it's lunch... we were already rushing durig the live firing ... can we take some break during lunch? Especially those few seconds one?

And ok.. fine... after lunch... i am the first few to finish... went to wash up... help around with stores... and what is that jack ass IC doing? He is smoking......
If we judge by my situation... i should also scold him to stop smoking and go help clear stores immediately right? I mean.. he and those smokers are wasting all our time... the smokers can have a smoker's break... then non-smokers cannot even have a dilly dally break.... fair or not? You be the judge...
I dilly dally for 10 seconds... he smoke for 5 mintues... so i think by right i can go screw him upside down for wasting time right?
2nd Sergeant... so what? Guardsman.. so what? Regular.. so what?SISPEC instructor.. so what? Do things until like that... i don't think he cna make it far man...
And honestly.... i don't give much a damm about 2SG... it's not much of a difference form a 3SG... just that you serve longer only...

That's the first case....

Second case... during our early dinner at 1640.. we went to eat together with the CSm course.... then the queue very long... and i and my friends were among the last to take... then we just sat down to eat not long later... he say have to fall in at 1730 in CV for RO... initally he did ask us to "exercise cut".. but hey.. we jsut got our food... can eat first right?
Then after awhile... he started to scold us... shout at us to hurry up....
Basket... we are eating leh.... need to scold also is it?

This time round... i am not that much pissed... but my firend is lar... he quite du lan at this IC also...
But at least this time.. there is a stupid instruction that we are all suppose to go abck to wingline together after dinner.... which i tihnk is really stupid... and then quite a few finish their food already.. because most of them throw the food away... so i also try to hurry up lar...
But the way he talk to us is really the thing that piss people off.... i seriously despise his attitude and tone man....

Honestly.. i think he is abit of a wayang king... and a very irritating loud hailer... you want to be best trainee say lar... i just give it to you lar...

For this course... i am already operating quite low key... becasuse seriously... i don't have any more fire burning within me to get the best or something... run out of oil le... but i still do my part... and so i don't expect anyone to come around to KB me for those nonsense... and for not much of a reason....

And so.. next time... THINK before you speak... seriously.. think....

Damm tired liao.. and abit heated up.. go sleep liao...