It is finally coming....

Damm... am i feeling the stress or what.....

Haiz... was just counting the days to the A leve.. and guess what? i ain't got much time left!!!

I am beginning to feel it coming... the stress.... oh.... Arghhh.....

And today was not a very good day... rain pratically all day... and there was a heavy downpour when i went to school.... so i was drentched.. like a "fallen soup chicken".... and i still went to the library and study.... got to take out my shoes and socks....all wet.... damm....

And before that, something even mroe fustrating.... i woke up in the morning, and was getting reaady to go to college, when i realise my hp is in low battery status.. so i charged it... and waited for it to be fully charged....

i waited... and waited.... from clear sunshine... it became a dark storm.... and that's when i decide.. i better get going, and charge the stupid phone in school.... and well, basically that is 1 reason why i got drentched...

But anyway... this are not really that important...
the STRESS is..... haiz... think i getting further away from my S.O.T.Y dream....
Am i putting unnecessary pressure on myself?
Damm.... this pressure is good, but it is kinda hard to deal with...

Actually, i think not much people knows why i aimed for the S.O.T.Y...
Well, firstly, it is due to the encouragement from my ODAC teacher, Mr Goh, who wanted to see my name on the S.O.T.Y. board in the college hall.... and that set me to strive for it.. because my CCA records not bad...

Well, another reason is that throughtout SRJC history.. there have been Victorians exceling, getting distingush awards, like last year, there was Zhi Wei, from VS and SRJC track, the top SRJC student, then 1 or 2 years back, there is Wei Kiong, who got the S.O.T.Y. award, and who happens to be the ODAC president as well.., And... i wanted to be the next Victorian to do so...
Man... this dream is getting hard to fulfill....

Why aim for S.O.T.Y.? Well... that's because i can't get the rest... except maybe best improvement.. haha...
Maybe other Victorians can do it, why u? Actually this is true... but so far i have the best CCA record... so i might as well make full use of it.....

I think i am getting nuts... answering my own questions....

Haiz.......

But i guess i can't give up now... told so many people about my target... If i didn't even work for it... i like "tui bu qi" those with hopes for me.... so i just got to work harder....

Guess that's all for today then... go watch "shi zhi lu kou" to laugh it off....

Argghhh................

That's all.... ~~~Nil Sine Labore